If it's all the same. When Mars is me and I'm the one with the broken dreams. And I'm the one alive and thinking it's all the same. When me is we yet I'm the one with the selfish dreams. And I'm the one who's life is fleeting.
And I wonder why I'm the one with all these selfish dreams. What's the point of my heart beating
It's all the same. This time is wasted on the son with the useless dreams. The one with thoughts that have no meaning.
And I wander slowly through the ocean of my useless dreams. The one with thoughts that have no meaning.
Some days my time is wasted and I need to use these dreams. I have to have a meaning
It's all the same. You feel tall and I'm unweighted. We're all the same.
When I looked outside. Feel so tall and I'm unweighted. All the same
When you see you're wanted, you're unique in your own way.
I feel it's okay. All the same. I feel it's okay
It's in everything. Though we have to die we cannot lose these dreams. I need life and love and beauty.
We'll be all okay.
Did you come? Do stay. Does the cold find another way. We sailed, stilled I don't know you. We flew. We're slipping away. Silence kills me. Did you kill my name? Does the skin find another flame? Slowly dive in two. Breathing in blue. Silence kills me. Torments in subtlety. Your silence kills me.
So quiet, so empty as the night takes us over. Floating, freeing from gravity's shoulder. I believe you when I said you would never be broken. I believed you when I said this would last us forever. You're so empty here. I'm a mountain of fear. And it seems I'm alone. No one's here. I did believe you'd never leave. I was so childish and small. As it seems I'm no longer ten feet tall. Pieces of memories. Smiling faces in photographs. I will know you forever. Even if someday I've lost my name I won't forget you ever. Dust in my hand... Will I see you at the end of the day? Will I see you on the moon? Will I see you at the end of your day? Will I see you on the moon?
Seems I will believe anything that you tell me. So tell me. I'm running out of dreams to make a home. I'm running out of years to die alone. Take away my fear I'm nothing. If you take away my fear I'm nothing. Seems I can't believe anything that you tell me. So tell me... I'm running out of dreams to die alone. I'm running out of years to make a home. Took away my fear. I'm nothing. You took away my fear. I'm nothing.
And it seems these words have bit me again. An infection slowly smothered the head. And it’s dead now. Died today. Simple thoughts that were lost in a tidal wave. Peace of mind that was quietly swept away. It’s gone now. Death by a thousand paper cuts. But you changed me. You saved me. If I had my say, in sober decay I would stand. But I fell down in the fallout. Sliding into a headlight I was trapped on the inside. I wanted out. But you changed me. You saved me. He floats away. Tidal wave.
Looked away. Life passed inside a day. Upward eye. Dodging what fell from the sky. I’ll be there tomorrow. Sacrifice wielded just as a knife. Selfish me. I’ve been chasing a dream. I’ll be there tomorrow. Will you be there tomorrow? Dimming light. Aching sides. Graying sight. I’m in the desert with death and the sun. Now alone. I missed a fork in the road and I seem wide awake. Forgive me arriving late. I’ll be there tomorrow. I’ll need you tomorrow. I won’t fall away. Not over. It’s not over. Fall. Won’t fall away now.
Nothing breathing. Winter feeding. Throw my weapons down. Death can hunt me now. Growing to despise the face around these eyes. Voices fleeting. Still there was a heart beating. Ten years frozen. Not yet broken. Moon has fallen down. Sun climbs back around. Lent me a shoulder, warmth of a hand. I know I don’t deserve this. I’ll kill it if I can. Melting fire. Eyes inspire today. Come and steal away with me. Drowning in the sea. Giving into trust and selfish wanderlust. Touch this blade to my hand. Hold these scars. Feel again. Open my chest. Open my veins. Open your chest. Open your veins. Bleed in me. It’s our time. A new October. Eyes now wide. Leaves turned over. I might fail and you will fall, but I will be here with you always. Always.
With pain, running the same can be all that we name. You wave, concave. You light it up all on your own. I'm a crack in your flooded boat. All you have is my broken oar. May they call you only. I might stumble. Won't you wait for me? The day I see you run beyond me I might stumble. Won't you wait for me? This sight, your daylight is all I want to know. Sate me and drink the sea. In foolish binding don't believe in ghosts of hope. Tied tightly I'll drown soon with you. Deep dark home.
Tape this heart down. Hold my head so I can see the ground. Throw me on the floor so I can sleep again. How long can I believe I'm just one who wants to be. How long? How long must I believe? If I lose my sight? If my mind's away? If I have no fight? How long must I believe? The city I gotta leave is the city I run to. If I touch the sky I know you'll fall away from here. If I touch the sky I know you'll fall away from me. If I touch the sky how long can I believe? The city I gotta leave is the city I run to. The feeling I gotta leave is the feeling I run to. When I feel alone I feel alright.
MADE & LEFT
Silver skin don't leave me. I'm almost dead. Don't erase me. Devil came and left, but told me to, sugar. City beat don't erase me. Enough screams. I'll be there soon. Turn to the fallen sister. So much for this don't brother. Turn to the fallen sister. So much for this don't know lover.
Decide to be and I'm undone. You're my favorite thing. I won't calm down. Who am I, but feeling? I know you now. We're riding our wave. We'll feel the same again. A cave in me I can't let lone. You're my favorite thing until I calm down. If it's lonely when I'm dead I will dance for you. You know me know. Riding our wave. We'll feel the same again. You tamed the bleeding out. You tamed an empty house. We'll feel the same again.
WE WERE WEIGHTLESS
There were Sundays. Green and blue. We were finite, me and you. Right beside you without leave when it's hard to breath. Our hands were fearful. But you couldn't see. You couldn't ever be sure of me. This isn't a goodbye, dear Sune. Now safely inside this train for two. Now we'll adventure me and you. There will be no gravity. The sun will always see and I'll be near you. You'll be steady. You'll be sure of me. Never a goodbye, dear Sune.
No sound bending air. I breathe alone now and wondering will it always be like this. There’s something in the air. Now I think I’m scared. Save me from the monsters under bed. Save me from a dusty head. It seems I need someone her to mend and save me from a bitter end. Want to taste the moon. I lack transportation. So is this how I will die? A fading pulse at hand, no one by my side. Without a shoulder to hold when I’m older. No one to take my hand. Am I less a man? Ashes and pictures of dreamers and lovers. Was it happiness? Did I give up the key to all of this. Reflect at last. Regret I can’t get past. Save me…
BENEATH THE FALL
Do you feel the sun the same? Do you ever taste the rain? Or run from the thunder until your legs stand up and throw you down? Do you ever say my name? You sold me out like I was a body. You held me down, dragged me bloody. I fell through a cloud. You watched as I went under. A solitary sound felt like thunder. I knew there was poison in a kiss. I knew I knew that I left myself defenseless. I pulled it all together for once and I hoped you wouldn’t let me down, but I knew it would end up just like this. What do you say when you explain yourself? Do you say the sun was not enough? Do you say you were in the mood for blood?
A NIGHTTIME DAYDREAM
Lighting touch. I am falling up. Ember clouds. Fire twisting out. You were calling. Me hiding silently in the deep as the hull was taking water. In kingdoms built of sand. With stars that lose their place. Down, down on broken wings. I see you in everything. I steal each breath I take. As night pulls on, I miss it all again. Sutures keep me whole. Can barely feel my hands. Trying to maintain control. I’m sliding to an end. You were dying. I was dreaming. The first act calls me back. Just cut my throat and drag me home.
So it comes down to this. Nothing to keep. No one to miss. They’re just salutations and ruminations. Empty hearts. Empty suits. So I’m alone, and drinking too. This haze takes me away. The wounds are healed for a day. And I won’t die. This smoke gives me away. I’ll sleep soundly today. And I am time. Praying to bottles. Caving, it coddles. I’m falling into outer places and darker spaces. This flailing heart is calling you when I’m alone, and drinking too.
Skin is colder. I can barely stand. Pain takes over. I’ll wait no more. This is the curtain call. Oh, I know. I know it’s right. I know. I know it’s time. Memories flooding. Faces I adore. Body falling. I’ll wait no more. I’m clutching winged hands. Say you’ll hold my memory. Say you will not forget my name. I felt forgotten in this cage. I felt forsaken in this cage. Say you’ll hold my memory. So good-bye.